Roll On: Make Peace and Renew Yourself

Dec 31, 2016



Today, I thought I'm going to try something new. Since forever, I have never cared about New Year's celebration and just treat it like a normal day. No new resolutions and hence no checking any achieved ones. I thought that if anyone wants to change or try to get something, you should start right this second. 

Of course, I have understood the urges since it gets us to reflect. The start of a brand new year, full of hopes and all new "Bajet 2017“. It surely serves as a good platform to start a change.

There is something different this time around, which has lead to this. Anyway, it is a good excuse to write this improving myself kit that I got in my head. Feels right to get it out.

I made these myself and feel free to comment if it feel wrong or you have a better idea. Help me be more awesome this year.

This is afifahaddnan Start program.

(Insert drum roll here)

Start fresh 

There are a lot of things happened this year. Not only in my own little life but the whole wide world. All of those can get us feel overwhelmed and small. There is this book I have read called Zen Life. It is a free ebook and you should really try to read it. One important thing the book have told me is that we just have to make peace with everything. Accept whatever it is you are and never condemn yourself. You can be wrong but never belittled yourself.

Accept and move on

Start to identify what you want and forget whatever you used to be. Then start working for whatever is that you want. You want to be living healthy? Forget about all the guilt comes from the eaten junk food and the extra kilos. Love all that instead! Then just believe that you can freaking do this and start living the healthy life you want. Give yourself the second, third heck the millionth chances because you always deserved it.

Start preparing

I am that girl that can live in clutter but at the next minute also a neat freak and has to have everything organized. I always love to get good strategy and be wholly prepared. 

So say you want that this year you can be more productive. Get to read articles and books on getting more productive. Jot down, like literally, WRITE IT DOWN whenever you found something that can help you be more productive. Start slow and level up accordingly. Do not ever put such high target and always notice even the smallest one. I would really suggest tracking your changes. Always have the daily to-do list and include all the things required in your life mission. Get a planner if you need to. I think a written one work like magic.

Start pushing

So now your mind all set and you plans all laid, did you get the guts?

One very important thing is that our body is just awesome. That guy that can run miles and that girl who can run a successful career, all of them generally have the same physique as you. We are just not tuned to it yet. 

There is always these issues which I found during my time at UKM. 

"She can la study all that crazy hours but I need to rest or else I'll be jammed"
"She can la run all those miles but I am so can not"
"He can la be so brave like that because that is who he is"

Peoples somehow gave this special pass to some "chosen ones" that they can but we cannot. I'm not a runner or such a geek at studying nor labelled "that kid", but I believe we can never say we can't do it. Sometimes we just have to push ourselves. So start pushing yourself now. Do more that you never thought you can. Took challenges you left before because you thought you can't do it. Do it little by little. Your body deserve to at least try it first. You owe yourself that much. If you don't feel like it at least now you can say, "been there done that" for real.

Start praying

All of this is purely physical. For outsiders to judge and markers set to be measured. It meant nothing if deep in your heart, you didn't feel it. Feel satisfied for the fights you have endured and pure happiness in the success. Feel contented and relieved. This is me talking about heart. That you have to get a good emotional and better yet, spiritual support. Feels that you changes is for the greater good. It does not have to be for all human kind or whatnot, a greater good is needed even it is only for you. Me, being a Muslim I believe that if Allah wills t, I'm having it. If I want to start being a businesswoman, I have to pray for it. I know it is sunnah and I can watch my ibadah better when I am the boss of me. Praying humbles us and gets us thinking deeper. Emotionally supporting us with the realization of our weakness and how He is all powerful. How He can be the help that we need, heck He is the only help that is. Finally, when He grant it, nothing can stop me. So, start praying. 

Start forgiving

Sometimes, well, maybe most of the time, we just don't get what we want. This is the beauty of being a Muslim, we believe that whatever the scores are, Allah set that because it is the best for us. That helped a lot to recover. But generally, things happened and we need to move on. You always got that chances to fail. That how life is. But you must know to get up right away and start fighting. Forgive yourself for your lose and weaknesses. Then restart. 

See why I called it the Start program?  



Roll On: Me in 5 Words

Dec 30, 2016

This is also an entry for a not so writing challenge I am doing (check out the label).
Me in five words is quite challenging. 

"All flawed but deeply awesome"

Gotta have that awesome word. I don't actually understand or realize since when I have been branding myself with the word awesome. 

For real though, some of my friends would refer me to the word awesome as if it is my second name. Not that I am actually that awesome.

Do you have any word you use to brand yourself? 


Bloglist Segmen: SEGMEN BLOGLIST JANUARI CIKLAPUNYABELOG

Dec 28, 2016

Another one babes!

Cik La, I have followed your Twitter and Like your Facebook page. Thanks for hosting ey.

Look into the banner, it is actually chick. Multi-coloured chicks. Hopefully it is Photoshop-ed.



I'm going to my aunt house for a few days.

Bloglist Segmen: Bloglist Tahun Baru 2017

I just spent almost an hour, in front on my laptop in the spirit of blogwalking and joining segmen (since I am such an avid to my cause). My shoulder hurts and I need to learn to manage my work better.

Pray for all the segmen I have joined so far.

It is killing me since most of the segmen is in Bahasa so I have to type it as segmen instead of segment.

Bloglist Segmen: Segmen Pencarian Bloglist 2017 Blog Cik Zue

If you have read my the previous segment that I have joined you would realize that I am on a journey.

So, another segment peeps!






This is actually quite nice, I got to see new blogs.


Storytime: Sunday Morning, Monday ends

Sunday Morning, Monday ends



Cas was deep in his reading. He is having fun with fanfiction on a tv series he likes. He smiles every now and then and chuckled. Erin was on her earphone, singing softly while strolling 9gag. It is one of those wasted times because they couldn't care less about anything. The world seems on pause though they can hear the rumble of cars from their 13th-floor apartment. The outside world seems like a very distant trivial stuff which happen in the background of a movie when we only focused on the main actor. They just finished a long Monday waiting

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you

"You sound sweet", Cas was suddenly beside Erin forcing her to open her eyes.
"Go away Cas. You ruin my song moment. I'm having a cool duet with Adam Levine"

Erin flushed at the compliment. She chooses to look cool though because she always is. Always so cool even with Cas giving her any affectionate compliment out of the blue with the most carefree voice as if it is the solid fact that the world has agreed on.

She was always very awkward when people compliment her.

Cas reach to her earphone to unplug it from her phone for the song to be played on speaker instead. It was Sunday Morning and he started to dance like a fool till the song ended. Erin rolls her eyes fondly. 

"We should really start at least think about dinner"
"You ruined my song. You ruined my song moment"
"But you sounded sweet"
"Shut up. You ruined my song moment and you are a terrible dancer"

Erin was still in her slacks and her blue button down. However annoyed she is, she is hungry. She starts to also wonder about dinner since she only has another cup of instant coffee for lunch. It's indeed a terrible day. Nope. Terrible Monday

"I hate Mondays"
"Well, it suited since you liked that Sunday Morning song too much"

Cas help himself beside Erin. The couch shifts a little and Erin is reaching to her side of the couch finding something on the small table there. Managing to almost drop the phone she then found the pizza menu and pass it to Cas, motioning for a simple takeout.

"I refuse to have a take away"

Erin raised a brow quizzically and start to wonder at the tiresome effort of getting a shower and be decent for a dinner in the outer world. Na-ah. But Cas has pushed her through the front door and shove her a sweater which has been amazingly laid so very conveniently on the couch. With a flick of the light switch, they were off. Erin grunts unapprovingly yet knowing Cas, who have always know what she wants, she needs whatever Cas has planned in mind. Though the world "planned" is a bit too elaborate. 

"Let's go for an adventure!"
"We don't adventure, we need dinner"
"Let's go to an adventure for dinner then"

Bloglist Segmen: Misi Pencarian Bloglist MYiDEAKiNi 2017

It was suppose to be a simple good morning to start this post but as I am typing the words, this scene come to mind and I am just a sucker for Supernatural. SOURCE.

I thought, in the spirit of wanting to be somewhat a blogger, I should have a bloglist. However, since I also need to up my traffic, I come to this conclusion: Joining as much as bloglist segmen available and if I get any, those blog's host would be in my bloglist as well. Some thing like to make me more rajin because I like seeing something I want to be many, like many posts of me joining bloglist segment. It felt accomplished somehow.

If I did not win any, I would just put any blog. I got some in mind.

I just found this blog and thought it is quite an interesting blog.

http://www.myideakini.com/2016/12/misi-pencarian-bloglist-myideakini-2017.html?m=1
Click banner to be directed to the host

Pray for me?

Roll On: My Supernatural edits

Dec 26, 2016

I just have all the pictures in phone transferred into my Dropbox so now I can simply have all the pictures to be updated here.

I love Supernatural a lot. Sometime I do edits but since the episodes I have downloaded were not that HD the picture always somehow turn vintagey something.

This stuff is my guilty pleasure.

I am too lazy to recheck which edits is which episodes. I should put some keywords so that the pictures can actually bring traffic so you're going to find some words for caption instead.



Dean Winchester , pointing gun, young, done, cute

Dean Winchester, young, sunshine, deep thought, supermodel, model

Dean Winchester, Deanmon, black eyes,  
J2, Jared and Jensen, Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, playful. teasing, interview, grey hair, this is actually just a screenshot.


Lucifer, Castiel, Casifer, Misha Collins, killing

Lucifer, Castiel, Casifer, smirking, adorable

Dean Winchester, Jensen Ackles, Sam Winchester, Jared Padelecki, brothers, expressions, J2J,

THIS IS NOT MINE.
I'm not sure where I found it, it the exorcisng demon out of human spell

Roll On: I am all bad things.

Dec 21, 2016

Please do not go through my archive, but I am 98% quite sure there is only one person I have ever made a birthday post for.

This is for Jiha and Nazihah and yeah, you guys always say your english was not your best game but I am of all bad things so this dedication is in English.


THIS IS A FREAKING LOVE CONFESSION BECAUSE YOU GUYS KNOW HOW I ALWAYS KONON KONON BERLAGAK COOL BUT ACTUALLY KAN DALAM HATI AKU ADA TAMAN BUNGA WITH PINK FLOWERS AND CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN


So, first of all, I am sorry for forgetting to wish your birthday.

I am of all bad things. To top that of, I do not really feel bad for some of the bad things. Like, for example, I do not really go the length to remember birthday date. Even though at last I actually remember the date of these two darlings, I was like, "ok harini 20hb yada yada" and someone wishes and I was like "ok hari yg 20hb ni mmg birthday nya jiha dan nazihah" and then it just triggered.

I remember the date (big yeah!) but do not actually realizing it (wth afifah, how even??).

Told you I am of all bad things.




Usually, I would not even be bothered much but this time, it is a bit different. I know how people always got touchy at stuff like this. For the bits that always want you guys (Jiha and Nazihah taw) to be happy and for the sore loser of me wanting to make you happy, I am sorry for not wishing. I could be giving you tonnes of reasons that I was sick and busy and all but then I thought, "This two things have been dealing patiently with me a lot, and they are actually really important to me, there is no reason in the world that could justify my action, it is just me"

I am so sorry babe, Happy belated birthday to the both of you. May Allah grant you rahmah in every crooks of your life and making you strong and patient for whatever challenge you may face. May Allah choses you to be one of the servant that He loved enough to be given jannah and may you guys always be my friend.

(ok yang last tu selfish)

Jiha and Nazihah has been quite a journey in my life. Funnily, Jiha started to be a big event in my life during my first year in UKM while Nazihah started on my last year in UKM. No, I am not kidding anyone here. It is the perfect beginning and a resolving conclusion.

What is crazier is that these two girls are of different personalities!

I do not read much but I always adores friendship shown in John Green's novel, especially in Paper Town (I did not watch the movie) and these two has somehow helped me to grasp the idea of those friendship. It teaches me a lot.

There is a lot to say but a very little word to express.

Jiha, I would say that we have a very rough but somehow rather stable relationship but truth be told, I am all open with you. I do not hide much things and said it all with you. Trust me when I say I thought a lot before telling anything to you and all of that is solely because I really care about you. I want you to not be in any rough patch and actually went about thinking how to be around you so that I can help you. Yeah, you do not really need my help but as the tittle of this post, I am all bad things and I just selfishly have to do it. I am wrong sometimes, and very harsh, I am sorry. I know I have hurts you dear and even if it is for the right reason, I am still very sorry. I never liked you to be hurt or angry with me. But for all those, I just want to say thank you so much. Thanks for every little adventures and mishaps we happen to enjoy together that I believe made available because I have you. You have made my university life even more meaningful and downright fun. Thanks abam.

Nazihah, I have a little confession, I never thought we could hit it off (maksudnya macam kita boleh jadi geng la) because seriously, I am not really keen to you before. No hard feeling eh, just that I thought that both of us are different. Rather predictably, once I got to know you better, I am actually true but surprisingly wrong about not to "hit off". You showed me to be bold in differences but at the same time to adapt for others just so. For that, I have been so comfortable with you. I have always want to finish my final year in a housemates kind of environment and truly it has come true because of you. Thanks for all the cooking adventures and trips with that little scooter. We bickers a lot and as the part of me being all bad things, Allah knows how sometime I just gave up with you but all good means babe. Everything come out great and surely that is magical itself. Thanks for showing me how to just be good and giving full effort and of course thanks for all sambal hitam and tempe and your mom's love. Thanks dear hajjah.

I am of all bad things. I have my darkness which somehow were more open with these two. Seriously speaking, you two have seen lots of my sides which I simply shut it off to some others. It is because I trust you two. I have hard time trusting people especially those to be called as friend so this is kind of a really big thing.

Thanks, dear Jiha and Nazihah.

When we meet again in the future, never mention to me about this confession or else I will tumbuk someone because damn this is very embarassing.


Roll On: Video editing attempt (Pulau Pangkor)

Dec 18, 2016


Assalammualaikum,

I went for Pulau Pangkor last Monday and Tuesday. Short trip just to look around since Pulau Pangkor is so near Seri Manjung. I have been meaning to try to edit video as this one so when I reached Pulau Pangkor I just randomly remembered this dream of mine and started to shoot videos . I do not even took much picture since I really does not like it. There is actually this school trip or something when we reach the Dutch Fort and the kids have been taking pictures. They took so many pictures and keep changing the role of model/photographer among them until finally were called to their van to continue their trip. They only took pictures.

I got nothing against people took photos and shared it to their social medias but I do watched some who go through so much trouble to took those pictures. Like so much troubles and it just kind sad.  The fort was really a beautiful thing and it stand there for hundreds of year.

I am nerd freak.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Enjoy the video!



By the way, it seemed like I cannot check out my followers blog since when I clicked their profile icon, it does not state the blog link. Urghh.

Roll On: The Not So Writing Challenge

Dec 17, 2016

Hey, my last entry was titled as according to this not so writing challenge. It is not really a writing challenge since the questions were meant to be answered quickly, not into an essay. But somehow, I kinda like the idea into making some of the questions into a full entry of my blog. 

The questions are meant to prompt the reader to question their current life stance. It was suppose to be this meditation thingy which you can read more here but for my sake, just treat it as some sort of writing prompt.


1. What are the things that stand between you and complete happiness?
2. What will people say at your funeral?
3. Standing at the gates of heaven, and God asks you “Why should I let you in?” What do you reply?
4. If you lost everything tomorrow, whose arms would you run into to make everything ok?
5. Does this person know how much they mean to you? When was the last time you told them?
6. If you could send a message to the entire world, what would you say in 30 seconds?
7. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?
8. If today was the last day of your life, what would you want to do?
9. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?
10. If your entire life was a movie, what title would best fit?
11. How would you describe yourself in 5 words?
12. What are the chances you’ve passed up on that you regret?
13. How do you apply the learning from this regret to your actions today?
14. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?
15. If you could watch everything that happened in your life until now, would you enjoy it?
16. If you could ask a single person one question, and they had to answer truthfully, who and what would you ask?
17. If you could start over, what would you do differently?
18. When you’re 90 years old, what will matter most to you in the world?
19. Are you holding onto something that you need to let go of? What’s stopping you?
20. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
21. Do you ask enough questions, or are you happily settling for what you know already?
22. How do you celebrate the things you do have in your life?
23. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you have done?
24. When was the last time you tried something new?
25. What were you doing when you last lost track of the time?
26. What is the difference between living and existing?
27. If you had a friend that you spoke to the same way you speak to yourself, how long do you think that person would allow you to be your friend?
28. If you had to teach someone one thing, what would you teach?
29. What makes you smile?
30. What drives you to do better at something?
31. What do you really love to do? Do you do it often? If you answer no, why not?
32. What can you do today that you couldn’t do a year ago? What will you be able to do at this time next year?
33. What is the last thing that you’ve done that’s really worth remembering?
34. What gets you excited and driven to achieve?
35. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new?
36. What do you want most out of life?
37. If karma was coming back to you, would it help or hurt you?
38. If you could go back in time, once, and change a single thing – what would it be?
39. If you had a year left to live, what would you achieve over the next 12 months?
40. If you could ask for one wish, what would it be?
41. What do you “owe” yourself?
42. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?
43. How do you spend the majority of your free time? Why?
44. What did you want to be when you were a kid?
45. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?
46. What terrifies you the most?
47. What are you looking forward to?
48. Describe the greatest adventure of your life
49. Where would you like to live? Why haven’t you moved?
50. What have you done that you’re most proud to have achieved?
51. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?
52. What is your greatest strength?
53. What is your greatest weakness?
54. What did your life teach you yesterday?
55. What have you done today to make someone’s life better?
56. Whose life have you had the greatest impact on?
57. What makes you special?
58. How many people do you truly love? What are you doing for them?
59. What bad habits do you want to break?
60. When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?
61. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence
62. If you spend a day watching movies when you should be working a day wasted or well spent?
63. Would your life be better or worse, if you knew the time and place where you would die?
64. What is honor, and does it even matter anymore
65. Would you be a martyr and risk your reputation by standing up for what is right in front of your peers? Or is it better to be pragmatic and do nothing?
66. Could you be persuaded to kill someone? If you answer no, how much money would it take to change your mind?”
67. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?
68. Would you rather have 10 years of excellent health, or 30 years of average health?
69. Is being open-minded a virtue, if it’s causing destructive ideas to spread throughout society?
70. Do you consider yourself the hero or the villain in your story?
71. How much control do you really have over yourself?
72. When did you last push the boundaries of your comfort zone?
73. What have you given up on?
74. Who are you really? Describe yourself without using your name, or any attributes given to you by society and really think. Deep down, who are you?


                    p/s: I have reached 80k! 

                    Roll On: What do I owe to myself.

                    Dec 16, 2016

                    There is this big ship at Lumut where Walid would sometime, when we were kids, took us with his small boat to its' side.

                    We were fishing and I reckon he like to have us look the at that big ship at such close proximity. To see the mass of it and how small we are. I can reach out my hand to touch it. I was so scared. The ship might move just a little bit more and we would all just die there.

                    Ok. Overreact. Maybe like drown.

                    I still did not know what the ship actually carried.

                    Walid had us experience stuffs. From eating a deer to walking a hundred meters high tree top skywalk. Not to mention the different methods of catching a fish, a 5 stars hotel experience and lets not forget that one time when we spent almost an hour just driving and chillin since the view were just breath taking.

                    We have done a lot. Alhamdulillah.

                    From it, I learned to understand differences and embrace it. It actually helped me a lot in my time in university. I saw different ways of living and how everything suited just nicely. I saw beauty in many ways that altogether different yet still beautifully unique. I learned to see beyond.

                    I would say that through my teensy little sneak peek of the world, is that, there are a lot out there. The world has so many to offer, so many to chase after. With that, we would never be satisfied. That every each success you get leaving you wanting more. It's a good thing of cource. The hunger. For some it worked such way but for me, it is not.

                    What do I owe to myself then.

                    Once, through all this adventures, I thought I owe to myself a trip around the world. Backpacking across Europe and living the dream in America. Seeing the world and absorb in all in.

                    Then I thought, it is going to be just one time thing, but I want something forever. I thought of getting myself an excellent carier and having to work to my own satisfaction. Build myself a reputation and make a little difference in this world.

                    That also meant so little somehow.

                    I thought that every kind of success is necessary. But, all those movie quotes and life philosophy thought that we need to aim for "happiness". It felt funny somehow. Do I need to infuse my life in weeds or anything? Being all time happy is a very weird agenda. All those things people aimed for life is never a happy journey. Does all those long journey of hardwork filled with blood, tears and sweats meants nothing just for the sake of "happiness" in the end of it? I love my tears and my pains. All those bruises and cuts. Every little scars made and broken heart to be mended. I love my darkness.

                    What I need is to be content but wanting necessarily. That is the utmout debt I owe to myself. To stop being delusional of what I have to have but knowing with what I have now is enough. To know what it meant to be the best of your version of perfect. Your very own definition. Not those shoved to you in Instagram feeds or lifestyle Youtubers. But still wanting to do more but on ground to be just enough that you actually would need. To know when to stop and when to know what just not meant to be or what just do not need.

                    It is knowing what you really want and purely you very own wanting. 




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                    Disclaimer: I'm trying a new writing challenge, I will tell more later. Why does the ambience of my writing feels funny?


                    Poem: Poison

                    Dec 11, 2016


                    Can't you hear the deafening sound of my silence?
                    The thundering clash of a shattered heart
                    The wailing of pain behind a stone hard face of lies
                    It used to be that I smiled to convince myself
                    That those sounds is just made up by my silly mind
                    But now I'm just blank
                    It is now just some blank spaces that grows inside my soul

                    You never really care how heart tear
                    You never really see how wound bleed
                    You never really know how tear despair
                    You never really know me when you claim that you will always be

                    You wont hear me out
                    I'm shutting you down

                    I'm collecting every fraction of bravery and strength
                    Binding every pieces, 
                    Trying to make some shape out of it
                    But it turned out into an ugly mess
                    Like those monster that bumped in the nights
                    I'm so broken
                    I can't even let you go

                    You're poison and i'm masochist


                    Roll On: 2017 Bloglist SA-VIORS.

                    Dec 10, 2016

                    About one hour and 30 minutes ago I thought that I will sleep early tonight to be fresher-er tomorrow since I have not been sleeping well for the past two days.

                    Yet, here I am.

                    I changed my template AGAIN. I love it so much.

                    It has been ages since I joined any contest or whatnot and to be truth this is only because I want to up my traffic and Rii's blog is a pleasant one so why not.



                    I have already followed you dear.



                    Poem: Poetry 101

                    Want to learn how I made my poems?

                    Sometimes I'll read some words or felt some sort of feelings especially when I read a book which makes me feel inspired to do poem. It's quite a bad poem so I am kind of feeling guilty to actually call it as a poem. Boo hoo.

                    I don't really know what sort of category it fell into but for general sake lets us just stick to poem.
                    Glad to sort that out.

                    There are some I want to try in this post. It will be short though. I'll try to make it rhymes as well.
                    For example today, let use the terms "spin the world" and "fly". I read it on some kids shirts at kenduri. I thought the two term might actually can be up to something. Something about seeing the carelessly free spirits of the kids throws the kind of vibes I want it to be.

                    I gotta spin the world
                    See what it has to offer
                    You gotta know something
                    I'm up for everything
                    Let's just fly across it then
                    Learn it all even beyond the end

                    Secondly, ganbatte tranlated to "hang tough". It is from a movie name Lion Standing against The Wind. It is said by this doctor founding new spirit to help the child soldiers during Sudan Civil War. I always read the translation as "fighting" or "work hard". The word "hang tough" truly fitting in since it is such traumatic experience and he literally has to hang tough.

                    World has so much to show
                    Too much to offer
                    It showed pain and you've seen it
                    Heck, it felt through as if you had it
                    Blood all over and it's not even yours
                    Blood all over and it's spilling onto the floors
                    But you strap your heart closer than ever
                    Seeing the brokens and wanting to mend
                    Only so much a soul can bear
                    Yet you hang tough though the world will continue to tear

                    Sometime I want to make it rhymes or have it repetiting. To get it rhymed, I'll Google it and thus has to work with what I found. If I don't found any I'll just don't make it rhymes anymore. It will also then affect how the poem would go.

                    Sometime I would want to say a word but the ones I had in mind don't really project what I want people to feel. I'll start looking for synonyms. I have a dictionary called "World Web" in my phone which is quite good but if O still don't found any I'll seek for Google's recommendation. But the best option would be looking into Thesaurus.com.

                    I like doing this really. I'm not sure why but it does made me felt accomplish.
                    I have just downloaded Telegram and it prompt to use their cloud storage by simply "chat with yourself". Sounded forever alone huh? Check out my Telegram background though,

                    HE IS SO CUTE.


                    Roll On: Weekend Mind-Expanding Movies To Watch.


                    I am utterly at awe at myself to actually wanting to do this post. I am far from those that comment on movie trailers (they always somehow so bitter) and obviously also not a regular critics on websites like Rotten Tomatoes and iMDB.

                    Just that, from a Malaysian to another Malaysian, I thought this might be a really interesting adventure for you to try since most would be not-so-mainstream movies thus were not widely known in Malaysia or simply those old English movies.

                    Actually, since I'm not working, I actually watch more of this type of movies. Why? First, I am watching the so called an all time favorites and guess what, it really live up to that. Secondly, mainstream movies are getting kinda stereotype thus bored me to death. For the last few months, the only mainstream movie actually made me excited is Fantastic Beast and Where To Find Them since it is a Harry Potter franchise. I will always love Harry Potter.

                    Does that even count?

                    Thirdly, it wasn't the type of movies that I usually watch and we gotta try to try it before actually not liking it. That is kinda the motto here and from there on, I found myself liking it. Surprise.

                    Let just challenge yourself.

                    If you want to be more adventurous, just look at the title and watch it. That is how I do it. I mean if millions of people tell me it's good, it must be so I want to be surprised with the storyline.

                    By watch it, I just stream at 123movies website. I'm a modern day pirate.

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                    Pirate of the Caribbean movies are awesome up till the third one. Afterward, it's kinda a sad attempt.

                    If you don't trust my opinion, check out TOP 100 movies at Rotten Tomatoes. They are such a professional critics and surely would not disappoint.

                    Blame 9gag for getting me wanting to try to watch these movies.

                    I'm not giving you how synopsis, you can Google that out, I'm telling you the feels afterwards. At least, my feels.



                    Angah found out about Hayao Miyazaki which through Ghibli studios have created a lot of worldwide recommended animation movies.  It is a simple animation that kids would be entertained but the further meaning through the pure and genuine storyline would captivate. We are supposed to watch all his work but something about animation movies always make me putting it off till later. Go on check out all especially My Neighbour Totoro. I didn't recommend My Neighbour Totor since I haven't watch it thoroughly but through those on off watching, I'd still say it is good.

                    What would you get from Spirited Away? You'll watch an honest depiction of adults hunger for world and a children who do not understand the need of all these stuff clashing in a world where you are belittle since you are different. You'll feel delighted at a kid's hard work and honest friendship. All happened it the world of spirits. Yup, spirits! You gotta give the credit for all those gawky and squirmish animation.


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                    I just love the train ride scene.


                    2, Poltergeist (1982).

                    Oh my goodness, I just list some movies crossing my mind that I deemed in my10 seconds deductions will worth your time. Those sequels after the first Poltergeist is a no no. The reviews were horrible when the first one was like this big success. Funnily, it wasn't as creepy as some mainstream movies I've watched like all The Conjuring-s and Insidious-es movies. I legit-ly yelled at one point but I don't remember why.

                    It is such a must watch because most modern day horror movies will have something in common with the idea from this movie. The main pillar of The Conjuring was based on this movie. It started with some honest and funny reaction towards all the disruption of the ghosts. What made me more into this film is how natural the acting is. Old peoples really know how to act. Not to mention all those science facts of a ghost hunting and you gotta love the no censored gory stuff.



                    This kid is just beautiful. She looked just like some plain little girl but nonetheless beautiful.











                    Why questioned this suggestion when Brad Pitt was such a babe in it! He is a babe and a psycho, PERFECT. They even have Helena Bonham Carter, no more question to be asked, JUST WATCH IT.

                    I totally got the wrong impression regarding this movie. It is of primal instinct and outrage rebellion. It questioned your life stand and masochism. By the way, the violence is raw. Like one of the critics which I simply agree wholeheartedly, "Even without the whiplash revelation, the film is a wild ride".


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                    Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

                    This movie is a babe. Tom Hanks is a babe. This movie, although quite absurd but totally somehow, justifiable. It showed how you can just about be anything when you put your heart and soul into. Just don't care about everyone else and be solid to what you want. At the same time, it teaches a bit about American history that I'd find quite educational but I don't know it you would understand much of the history part if you do not know any of it. I guess, with today no boundaries and stuff, you should at least know some of it so. Or else you might thought the history part to be just weird and boring. At least you must know what hippies are back on those days.

                    I just loved the southern American accent and the lovely quotes all over the movies. It is based on a popular book so naturally would have well written quotes. There are some scenes to cry for but I don't really cry, I'm dead inside.

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                    This was a bit of spoiler but it is so endearing.



                    This one is for Angah as I asked her and quickly her answer is must watch Silver Lining Playbook. I've watched it and totally at awe at Jennifer Lawrence and just sad that Hunger Games franchises is not doing a justice on her talent. By the way, I still didn't watched the Mockingjay ones since Catching Fire was not really a turn on for me. This movie is brilliant. It question love to the very core and showed us how love making us limping through life or waking up from the ashes. 

                    It's a romantic comedy movie. I'm such a sweetheart.


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                    You are Jenny, you are.

                    I want to do a list of ten movies but I gotta go now. Maybe next weekend I'll make another five. If you have watched it, do tell your opinion as well. Or if you're going to, come back and tell me as well!

                    Happy Weekend!

                    Roll On: Pos Laju, Pos Ekspress and Flexi Pack cost.

                    Dec 5, 2016

                    Actually, I made a target to reach 80k pageviews upon 1st December 2016. Tak payah check, I failed. I don't have much time to post anything but then that is the real challenge now is it? To be consistent.

                    I'm not even working right now for all that it worth.

                    Urghhh.

                    I've been to Pos Malaysia the other day to get myself some Pos Ekspress envelopes and et cetera. Lame business really. I snapped some pictures showing the type of envelopes they have and their respected cost as it have been gracefully displayed. 

                    Generally, Pos Laju is the one that you need to have someone signed for it or else it will be kept in the postal office. Then you need to bring the slip (which is given when you aren't home or anything) and your identity card to claim it. All those troublesome means it will only get to you give or take two to three day.

                    If you want to get it the day after, use Pos Ekspress. No need any signature. Of course Pos Laju would cost more lah. Safer as well.

                    Basically, I just took some pictures which might be beneficial to you guys. 









                    Check out my Instashop (check out my sidebar) 

                    Poem: High on words.

                    Nov 25, 2016

                    This is some things I come out with. Hope you'll enjoy. Don't mind the signature. All are mine.

                    Roll On: Aiken Moisturizer and why it is good for acne.

                    Nov 24, 2016

                    No, i'm not going to do in depth study about beauty stuff. I'm just sharing what I know now.

                    So, let's do this!

                    Aiken Moisturizer.

                    Bear in mind that I am the worst skincare person you want to really rely on experiences but fret not! Since we have learned thoroughly about skincare (during my degree in pharmacy) especially in this case, acne, my opinions here is of good value. Well, you know what, why don't you tell me?

                    As I say before HERE Aiken product is one of the cheap and natural product used for acne skin problem. You should check that link first to understand why I choose it. I didn't mention it earlier but I do like Aiken since it uses natural ingredient though it really does not mean any different.

                    Aiken main anti acne action, as I mention before, rely on the tea tree oil components. All Aiken product will have this compound and thus all product, for example the moisturizer, even initially just meant to moisturize has rev up to actually has some effect on acne also. Cool huh.

                    But, do you need it?

                    Living with others girls throughout my years in pharmacy and looking into tonnes of beauty blogger skincare routine I have a solid rule to do what works the best for you and screw everyone. Most of the girls there don't even care about other skin product except for face wash (do remember that we sweat a lot since this is Malaysia) while these beauty gurus need at least half hour per session (morning routine, night routine etc) to apply their beauty product. But it all worked. Minor differences but it all worked. 

                    There are a lot of factors to that. Just try to figure out what suit you and don't be pressure to get EVERYTHING.

                    There is really only one rule if you in dire need for moisturizer; if you have dry skin.

                    so, there is no white wall in my house.


                    As I say before, I do have dry skin. Not only that, since I tend to use tea tree oil on living pimples, it tends to dry the skin. With that, I wear this but not religiously since I always forget. I usually remember to wear it after I cleanse my face since it will get so dry. I also wear it before putting on foundation because the foundation worked better that way. 

                    How does it feel?

                    It really is a great touch. Since it is water base and really really light, it kind of soaked into your skin and makes it feel supple and hydrated. You know, like those "hada labo" commercial but the effect of like so healthy skin does not last forever. The skin is still hydrated but the glow would not show as much. Or maybe because I have dark skin. 

                    It has faint fragrance which is really soothing actually.

                    The cream is sort of translucent

                    I'm not sure if moisturizing skin itself is needed if you got acne but skin heals faster in moist surrounding so there is that. Although it felt like it soaked up into you skin, it does not really all soaked up. I can feel the slick-ish texture when I wash my face even after several hours.


                    Actual hada labo people

                    But oily skin need moisturizer as well. By providing enough hydration we like tell the brain that "the skin is not so dry now so maybe you can cut off the oil sebum ey mate". In long term it will reduces the oil secretion thus lessen the chances for acne. Though it is really some theory. I think it would be better to religiously clean the oil by wiping it and wash your face regularly with water. At least that is what all this kakak is telling me. I think we can settle in between by only wearing the moisturizer when you're going to sleep and keep on washing your face with water. Wiping the oil is important since when you always got oil on your face, more dirt can be trapped and that will lead to more acne.

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                    Btw, if you want to know other opinions I have regarding Aiken, just click the tag Aiken. I only have three posts so far.

                    toodles~


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