Roll On: 7 Blogging Sins

#update: i have rechecked this post twice and there is still some stupid typos.

I would always have this thoughts/things I felt like "I totally need to write that out" and do mind that I was all kind of excited. Then, when I am actually going to write anything, I just don't. Like now.

I don't know.

Sometimes the idea don't felt that much exciting when I am on to it deeper.
Sometimes I just don't know how to carefully phrase it.
Sometimes it kind of felt too much work and I just don't know how to start
or do I really need to start?
Sometimes I was like ok, good topic, but what is the points I can talk on?

Like now. I am suppose to write 7 Blogging Sins which I found so very interesting thing to write. I read it this morning at this newly found cool blog by Zety.

So............................................. I think I have found my first sin then.

#1: I can't sort my mind properly to write properly.

Btw, I don't understand completely by word this blogging sins concept but I kind of have a good understanding by heart of it, (after reading a few more blog writing it out) so, yeah, there is always that.

oh. I realized my second sin.

#2: I don't have a specific niche

I don't know what am I in this blogging world. I don't have a specific niche. It's kind of just me and my silly mind.

I started blogging since 2010. Many bloggers started out that time has been flooded with thousands of followers and then there is me. I am fairly confident that I made myself a blog because everyone does though among all of my friends, I am the only one actually have a blog that time. 

Wth me. 

I've be through multiple hiatus. Changes my writing style a few times. Changes my blog layout some more. Even the link has been changed a few times. Made some blogger friends. Lost everyone though. It kind of a blurry "friendship". Legitly made some sort of blogger/vloggers group which I think I have deleted it since it is more quite than a cemetery at the middle of the night. 

naturally I remembered the digging graves scenes in Supernatural. source.

I just recently made my mind that this current blogging style I have is the kind of blogger I want to be. Whatever it is though because I don't have any specificity except for randomness. I writes about my life mostly though God knows no one care. It is more like opinion based and mind thinking stuff. I love thoughts and understand peoples opinions and I can't found these kind of blogger much. Please don't tell me that I am the only one here with this kind of mentality because I have been Googling but not finding much. I was also looking for those Malaysia based blog written in English since Malaysian writes in English has 50% higher chances to actually be the kind of blogger I want to know. 

I am fairly confident everyone is confuse by my statement now but anywayyyyyyy

But this morning I have found some like SPITOUTKATA and Erin Azmir which I enjoyed reading. 

OH MY GOD I AM LEGIT HAPPY THIS MORNING TO BE ABLE TO FOUND THESE BLOGS WHICH ACTUALLY MADE ME EXCITED.

There is hope fellas.

#3: I hate rechecking and correcting

Grammar mistake, typos and weird construct of sentence is bound to happen in every updates I have in my blog but I am so reluctant to fix it. I am just lazy. That is all to it.

But I do it sometime, bless me.

Thank for Blogger app, the job is easier now. 

#4: I rarely almost to never really plan anything to write

I do. I truly lived writing-from-my-heart craps and stuff. The last time I actually planned my writing is the review I made of my smartphone which actually as far a screenshots the things I think I need to show. I go through my smartphone searching for reasonable stuff needed to be shown so that I can do a good review. That only took few minutes and then when I start to type it was still so randomly done. But I got all the important things so there is always that. 

Not to mention it will always makes me writes too much afterward. It is like that one person who talk a lot and start to talk about other random things and thus lost from the actual topic. It lack of plot and arrangement so that the reader can understand better. I might actually ended up with no real things actually worth anyone time. It have so many drawbacks but I kept on doing it anyway.

I was going to make an actual edit of this but it didn't work out, so here it is. Enjoy a Misha Collins folk.

#5: I have this stupid Americans accent

I seriously have this itch that the way I write is like some Americans way of talking because all my English is due to Americans TV dramas, books, songs and movies. Do I? It made me feel like I was trying to be someone else.

It bugs me to no end when I keep on using terms like "really" "stuff" "omg" "like" "some" "things" "sort of".

A very bad case of poor vocabulary

#6: Do I offend you? Because I don't really care but I kind of actually care.

This is a serious issue of a love/hate relationship. As I say before, I'm writing from my mind. My own little say in this whole wide world. My opinions changes. This blog is how I kept track of my growth.

Somehow, upon writing, I tend to tweak the point to make it bearable for all kind of sentiment ie: being a Malaysian and exposed to westerner. 

* Okay, if anyone not Malaysian here, Malaysian literally named the Americans the westerner. It is like how you thought all asian eat rice though most of us does not have squinty eye *

It's quite pathetic, I must say, to care so much what others think because first, no one really care/read my blog and second, it kind of made me look like lalang. I want to be of my own opinion with my own say and no one to shake me unless they proven me wrong. I accept everyone was of thinking, there is this say, to hate the deeds but not the one who does it. It made sense right. I mean, I am Muslim. The whole world against us, my prophet Muhammad are made fun of and I am waiting for our turn to get killed here. I am scared but I don't hate those peoples. They just don't understand

But, I hate Trump. So so much. 

#7: Supernatural too much. (the bold option in this Blogger app is gone)

I am not feeling guilty for all Supernatural reference I made and the occasional random picture of these guys. I don't. Their picture can be out of context so I am sorry, oh wait, I really don't.  

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If  I do this last two years, the last sin would be being self centeredness. One of my friend actually laughed my blog from being perasan since I always talked about myself. Last two years in FFAR is hard and this blog had help me sort my mind and writing really help me so much. I kind of accept that and not feeling sinful at all.

So there is always that.

Hugs and kisses.

p/s: ever heard of the joke how expensive "rescuing" Matt Damon is (Saving Private Ryan, The Martian). I just watched Saving Private Ryan, GREAT MOVIE. Damn Matt Damon is so high maintenance Tom Hanks has to die for him. Urghhh.